BYE BYE LSM2203!

1 down! bye bye LSM2203. This module has given me so many profile picture materials (during the lab sessions) LOL!

BUT I truly love the module so mucchhhhh..

It's really enjoyable. I LOVE LAB SESSIONS SO MUCH!

should I just do research then?

Pianistically yours,

C.L.

What are words

The song of the day:

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

And I know an angel was sent just for me
And I know I'm meant to be where I am
And I'm gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight
And I'm gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
And I'm gonna be here forever more
Every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

I'm forever keeping my angel close

the Professor, again!

I met my Professor again in the lecture just now.

I sat on the 2nd front row. Nobody sat on the 1st row. I was simply the most nearest student to her in the LT.

But our eyes was never met together (ask why!)

I surely believed she noticed I was there.

Anw she has never replied my email anymore.

Hmm, it is fine for me even if she has looked down at me.

It is reasonable.

She said the TA worked in her lab right now was in 1st class Honours during his undergraduate study. Another TA of her had a CAP of (again, 1st class) 4.8 and she confidently gave the TA approval for a scholarship application.

Well, I am not a 1st class student. It was understandable if she was shocked when looking at my CAP. She might RARELY look at such a very-very-low-,-she-said CAP. Perhaps her eyes got really irritated after looking at my CAP.

Really hope I can reach the 1st class Honours as well, as what their TAs did.

Hmm, everyone does, for sure.

But I thank God whatever my situation is.

He never says my CAP is irritating His eyes. He always accepts me, with unconditional love of Him. It's irritating His heart when I am being discouraged and stop being thankful for all His grace to me.

I forgive my Professor.

[Doing lab report and suddenly want to post a blog.

now I'm continuing my lab report.]

Signing off,

C. L.

Meeting up with my Professor

I woke up late and came late when I was supposed to meet up with my Professor.

A bad start for my day!!!

But I didn't really care after talking and discussing regarding my study with the Professor.

She was just okay about that. Then we talked and discussed about so many things.

What I got from conversation with her was that,

she didn't really agree I am going to Scotland.

Well, it didn't mean that she didn't give me approval to do so,

but then she wanted me to re-consider my CAP, my further study, my current ultimate goal: be able to do Honours year.

She advised me to take Special terms, instead.

I didn't like it when she looked at my SAPs from the beginning and being stunned looking at how HIGH my 2nd SAP during year 1 sem 2, compared to the rest (which were very very bad, in her opinion). Shockingly, she said, "Well, I don't understand how come your SAPs are like this. Should you check to them whether they have put your 2nd SAP here wrongly? Then I would know that it is your study habits which are inappropriate."

I was totally silent at that time.

She didn't know me before. She didn't know my struggle during that time; how anti-social I was until I reached that high SAP? Yeah she might be true, I was actually didn't deserve to receive that high SAP. It was all His grace. Not by my own strength, but it was Him who gave it to me.

No bitterness to her, she was actually nice and concerned with my study.

Later she said, "Then prove it this semester that this high SAP is not by a coincidental, but because of your hard work. You have reached it before, means you could. Just prove it once again, and you'll be able to do your Honours year later."

God, people might look down at me; but I would be angry if they look down to You. You have been so caring to me, giving me all these graces. Being with You is all I want. Being close to You is more than my any ultimate goals. What should I ask more? You're more than enough to me.

His,

C. L.

Sharing before sleeping

Just now I have reviewed my Goal Setting for this year, year 2011.

I was a bit sad looking at it.

I didn't follow most of them.

Regarding my health (sleep at most at 1am, sleep for 7-8 hours a day), my study (i aimed at least B+ for all my core modules and get at least 1 A), my emotional (don't being emo & stop crying).......hhmmmmm.... T.T

God, what then should I do?

I put my goals as high as possible, as if I can reach them by myself -NO!

I cannot reach them at all. At all.

I lift up my hands, and what I can see are Your hands, reaching the goals for me, and bring them into my hands. Oh God, what a wish..

These 2 days, I felt a bit guilty for asking You so many many things.

My CA results (not good, but it's ok God. Time to do better next time), my midterm results (really not good, but it's ok God. Just give what You think is the best), LAC2201 Test 3 next week, LAC2201 Oral Exam next week, LSM2103 CA 2 next week, LSM2203 (CA + Practical Exam) next week, my summer programme deadline, my 'informal interview' with my professor YFM (because I asked her to be my referee for summer programme application), my exchange module mapping (10 modules) deadline, SS essay deadline, lab report deadline..................I almost reach my dead line, I think. Hahahaha..

God, are you getting tired with all of my prayers?

Am I too self-centered in all of my prayers?

Yeah, I too feel that, especially when reviewing my Goal Setting.

I promised I'd pray for 1 particular person for 1 month. Pray everything for him/her, but then these 2 months I ended up praying all for me, I, and myself :( I am sorry, God. I also promised I'd pray everyday for my family member. But then, I was also too busy with my prayer lists. I am so sorry, God. Thank You for touching my heart, I want to change my mindset from now on. Keep praying for others, don't only pray for myself. Do all of my tasks faithfully. With the long to-do-list, I believe God will give me strength to do all of them excellently, for God wants me to excel in my study, to bless others. Really God. I am longing to share all of Your miracles in my study to others. This semester I'm gonna reach the best!!!!!!

To-do-list for today:

- Finish SSS1207 Essay -> submit to IVLE

- Meet up with my Professor, get approval from her, consult my study with her

- Go to YIH to get my official transcript

- Finish my Summer Programme application

- Pray for my Summer Programme application

- Finish Lab Report LSM2203 for Water and Soil Microbiology

- Review & make notes for LSM2203 Practical (prepare for CA next week)

- Prepare for LSM2103 Review on the following day

Gonna be a long day. A long long day with full of God's miracles!!

Off,

C. L.

Random Updates About Myself

1. Mission was complete. My last Chinese quiz had just past 2 days ago. I am so happy, not because I could not it perfectly (in fact, I did one mistake - 3.5 marks,. So I think I would get 96.5 for this quiz. Never mind. I don't care anymore.), but because I did it WITHOUT asking anyone. It was a progress for me. Hehe. Thanks God for enabling me to do that. Without the strength from You, I would not pass this temptation. But You delivered me :)

2. I got my SSS1207 Midterm result. It was BAD. Seriously. I almost cried in YIH because of this. But then, God never fails me. He has given me the best result, which I deserved to receive. So, no complain, just give my all during the Final Exam, and for next week's essay deadline for this module. God, I trust in You only. Never in my mind I want to S/U this module. Why do I need to? I will get a very very good mark for this module. (No supporting evidence up to now. Only faith speaks)

3. My Chinese Project's deadline is tomorrow. My part would be the BBC News Caster and Weather Forecaster. For this weather forecaster, I got some problems on it. The vocabularies and sentences structures are the ones I have never learnt before! I die die need to practice and practice to make it well-pronounced. Oh God, please give me strength. This is my hope to pull up my marks for this module. Oh well, You know that better!

4. It's week 12 already, which means next week I'll be having 3 tests (which 2 of them can be considered as my final exams), and I have not prepared them well so far. How to divide my week to master these 3 modules? God, again, You are my only hope. Please guide me, for I am weak and don't know how and what to do.

5. My brother likes my birthday present for his 21st bday today. Love you, brother!

6. God, I thank You very much for Your miracles regarding the summer programme. But then I'm getting really confused right now. What to choose? Please choose it for me, God T.T

Tired and tired,

C. L.