Meeting up with my Professor

I woke up late and came late when I was supposed to meet up with my Professor.

A bad start for my day!!!

But I didn't really care after talking and discussing regarding my study with the Professor.

She was just okay about that. Then we talked and discussed about so many things.

What I got from conversation with her was that,

she didn't really agree I am going to Scotland.

Well, it didn't mean that she didn't give me approval to do so,

but then she wanted me to re-consider my CAP, my further study, my current ultimate goal: be able to do Honours year.

She advised me to take Special terms, instead.

I didn't like it when she looked at my SAPs from the beginning and being stunned looking at how HIGH my 2nd SAP during year 1 sem 2, compared to the rest (which were very very bad, in her opinion). Shockingly, she said, "Well, I don't understand how come your SAPs are like this. Should you check to them whether they have put your 2nd SAP here wrongly? Then I would know that it is your study habits which are inappropriate."

I was totally silent at that time.

She didn't know me before. She didn't know my struggle during that time; how anti-social I was until I reached that high SAP? Yeah she might be true, I was actually didn't deserve to receive that high SAP. It was all His grace. Not by my own strength, but it was Him who gave it to me.

No bitterness to her, she was actually nice and concerned with my study.

Later she said, "Then prove it this semester that this high SAP is not by a coincidental, but because of your hard work. You have reached it before, means you could. Just prove it once again, and you'll be able to do your Honours year later."

God, people might look down at me; but I would be angry if they look down to You. You have been so caring to me, giving me all these graces. Being with You is all I want. Being close to You is more than my any ultimate goals. What should I ask more? You're more than enough to me.

His,

C. L.